"I am writing this story and it kicks me in the gut, it brings me to my knees and swells my eyes with tears. This is not an easy story to write. It is about who I was and who I am. It’s about trying to figure out what makes a good person good, trying to figure out how to fit in, how to give myself permission to be who I am--to let myself become without society or church or my neighbor or a husband, telling me who I am, what I should think, how I should act or where I should go.” Morning pages, May 12, 2008Columbine
Isn’t that what we're all trying to do--become our truth? We tell our stories a snippet at a time, at lunch, in emails, in letters, in conversations. We tell the funny ones mostly. And then there are the deep ones, the painful ones that we save for precious moments and precious people. Telling our stories connects us to all of human kind and stories heal. They are an act of love.
I am close--less than ten pages from finishing my novel. It is a work of fiction but no matter how much fiction one creates, truths flow out. The unconscious is an amazing part of the mind and body. It is ever busy, ever working to help and to heal.
And so soon, maybe tomorrow, you may hear me singing from the tree tops and the words to the song go something like this: “it is finished, it is finished--all of it is truly finished!”
Vickie,
ReplyDeleteThis is such a beautiful post in which I relate so well.
Discovering who I am without others telling me who I should be.
You have a way with words and I can see that your novel without a doubt will touch the hearts of many souls that need healing.
Sending you warm energy in your final pages.
Deborah
Vickie,
ReplyDeleteVickie,
ReplyDeleteThe source of your creativity shines through in your art,photography and therapy and it will also in finishing your novel.My thoughts are with you. Thank you for your posts. I look forward to them as they give me new insights each week.
Janice
Deborah and Janice,
ReplyDeleteThank you both so much for your kind comments. The novel is finally finished, that is, all the scenes are written and it is ready for the final edit.
A book is truly a mammoth labor of love, and time and energy consuming. Once one stage is complete, another begins as it makes its way to the final form that reaches reader's hands.
What I can say now, is it is one stage closer to completion and that makes me very happy.
So its on to the next stage!